3 years later/return to writing

So I decide to act on the long-considered action and start the blog thing. And then I realize, oh shit, it's almost exactly 3 years since I last made this decision. Spring fever, you got me, time and again.

And what's news? Shockingly, I still love Marty! 3 years and 3 cities later, everything is kickin like it should be. Still dating, yes, but who cares? A major lesson learned in the past oh, I don't know, 10 years is that there's no rush to marriage. Basically once you've found someone that you could realistically spend your life with, you're already spending it so why sweat the details? And then you stop fighting over commitment, and spend more time being in love. It's like the opposite of a vicious circle.

Not to say that everything has been orchids - which are my fave flowers and are generally awesome. Perhaps we've been all roses; mostly beautiful blooms, with a few unattractive lame-o's that need to be chopped with a certain degree of delicacy, lest they affect their blooming neighbors. Whatevs. Are we all perfect? Doubtful.

What else is news? Like I said, 3 cities later (to include Chi, the Hate [aka Hartford], and NYC, not to mention Marty's time spent in Stockton and Orlando).... I've got this job where I'm exacting revenge on the statement "think outside the box" on a daily basis. BTW, the person who gave me that advice later decided to stay in the box, then couldn't find a job, and is now looking for a return to the box. Hey, good luck with all that. I could find a box job 100x easier. Meanwhile, my work drives me absolutely crazy. I do a whole lot more than my job description gives me credit for, but I couldn't live without that constant drive to do more, which is why I am bombarded with the extra work that I complain about. My latest complaint is something to the effect of "I have way too much responsibility and too little authority."

So those are my most pressing issues and gripes. Don't worry, there's more. Expect commentary on people I encounter, experiences in NYC especially 2nd Ave, other cities I visit, and much more. I realize I've traveled more territory with ol' Martell than I can keep track of, so I think it's time to start documenting our voyages.

Popular? Not so much these days.....but that's because the folks currently around me aren't missing what they can't have, since they've never had it. I've had to disconnect from certain people so that I wouldn't be drawn back into old habits. Sad, yes. Regrettable, no. Insightful, seriously. More on all that in the future.

I've had a lot of adventures since I started this business 3 years ago, and I'm amazed it's taken me this long to actually act on getting them on paper. I hope my fingers can keep up with my trains of thought. I don't care if no one else reads any of this. Get back in the game, ER, and keep 'em coming.

popular

something has changed in the electrical current of the universe...something like those 3 words being spoken sent a wave through the ether, redirecting some bizarre attention my way. what is today? why am i suddenly in hot pursuit? it really is as though they all knew - they all got the signal, 'she's in love, time to start the challenge.' well guess what world: i AM in love, in a way that i thought i couldn't be again. and i'm not going to sacrifice it for anything. this is the best chance i've ever had for happiness, and i'm taking it as far as it'll go.
so bob is jealous that we never had a romantic relationship...
so MB will never have a shot with me...
so tim is regretting his greatest mistake...
marty loves me. and i love marty.

Intro

This past year of my life has been defined by change. At one time, I knew where I was, where I was headed, and how I was going to get there. Then everything I knew was gone. And it was strange how it got to that point, because it's not like it was entirely out of thin air, though in many ways it was. It was a lot of promises that were made half-heartedly and then were broken haphazardly. It was lies that were denied and later were found to be truths. And it was odd circumstances - thinking that I knew what to expect when really all I could expect was the unexpected.
Well, for as much as I mourned and lamented the life that I lost, I have finally been realizing the life that I gained. In being abandoned, I learned how to find my own way. And once I was able to let go, it was like there was a light shining on me where there had always been darkness. I realized that I had been held in a shadow for the longest time, and when I stepped out, the world was waiting for me with open arms. It is amazing, when you go from feeling like nothing to having people treat you like you are everything.
With all of this came the confidence to step out on my own; to remember what it was like to be me, for the stories to be mine. And the stories...oh how they returned. The experiences are mine, but the memories are for the world to share. Sit back, relax, laugh, cry, get angry...I've been through some crazy shit that's just too much to keep in this little brain of mine.